If you are thinking about adopting, it's like lots and lots of baby steps. You have to learn to be verrrry patient, because it is a LOT of hurry up and wait. There is very little you have control over. You have to do your part then sit back and let God have control over the rest. (Side note - how do atheists do this? You have to have a LOT of faith and trust to do this, knowing which facilitator/agency to use, knowing when to wait, etc. I'm sure they muddle through somehow, but good grief! Side note to the side note- I need footnotes or something so I don't keep distracting you with my ADHLAS thoughts and squirrel chasing. ADHLAS:Attention deficit, hey look a squirrel. Yep, that's me. And it's worse when I'm talking! Ok, where was I?) You pray while you are waiting and soon enough (ok NOT soon enough), God will give you your next tiny baby step. If you are like me, impatient, needing to be in control, and hating not know what is going on, well, tough! Just gonna have to learn to get over that. I'm not saying be passive, because there will be times you have to be a mama bear, but realize what things are out of your control. Got it? Good!
And pregnancy symptoms, what in the world? I've heard the term paper pregnant in reference to adoption, but I didn't know they were serious!!! Mood swings, crying jags, tearing up over the slightest thing, whether it's good or bad, nausea and lack of appetite. It's all here. I had been trying to diet, and was doing fairly well at it, but got sidetracked and fell off the food wagon. Shocker, right? But then this started! I've lost 5 lbs this week. Just can't eat. Either I'm emailing texting or FB-ing, or I'm stressing/praying and just don't feel like eating. Not that I am complaining about this part! It would be nice for the boys' first impression of me NOT be of a cow. Lol let's just hope this doesn't end up like my other pregnancies and I gain 50 lbs in the next few months.